I’ll be sure I post the byline here first, but I’m sure there’s some ethical rule of journalism that says you shouldn’t blab about whatever you’re in the process of doing — either that or it will just ruin the idea of anyone reading it.

Regardless, I’m leaving the city just after 7:15 a.m. tomorrow for some tough interviewing. Really, I’ve gotten over that it’s a tough interview, tough topic, tough story. I’d like to think I’m destined for scarier and harder things. Now, I’m just concerned that the interview will turn into discussion and nostalgia, and I know what my angle is overall, but not exactly what I expect from this, the very main source.

And I’ve mastered arriving and saying, “okay, what’s your story?” And from there fill in all the little gaps and ask what needs to be asked. But now my problem lies in that possibility of leaving with tons of information, and not one useful thing.

In this case, I don’t even know what is useful. Tell me the university was awful at handling your situation? I’m not trying to be the watchdog this time. Plug the smooth process? I’m not a PR person, either. I guess, along with finally clarifying what really happened that April day that even as a mere reader I still can’t shake, I need to know what that process was. How it was handled. And, in this society where our employers pretend that grief is a three-day process, what’s left to be done.